You're Gonna Have to Beat It Out of Me

Okay, okay I get it

I'm talking to you, God

I see your plan for me, I get it now, okay?

I know you're going to keep me in humble circumstances

keep turning the screws

I know you're going to keep knocking me down until there's no fight left

maybe its arrogance you wish me to rid myself of

arrogance in thinking that by worrying and dwelling upon, I can change myself and the world

I can see myself as the old man you want me to become

old but wise and still alive and vital and creating

and this man, the man you want me to become, he lets almost everything go by him

he doesn't rush out to defend everything he holds dear every time someone disagrees with him

most of the time he just nods his head and says, “Maybe you're right.”

So I get it, I get it

But I still can't seem to take anything on faith

You know that

And you also know that, as such, I have to live my life the way it makes sense to me from moment to moment

Maybe it's fight, maybe it's heart, maybe it's dull arrogance, maybe it's all three;

but no matter what it is

if there's something in me that shouldn't be there

You're gonna have to beat it out of me

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