Wednesday, February 11, 2015

A fear

I sometimes fear that I will get to the end of my life

maybe as a sick, sad, lonely old man
or perhaps trapped in a car wreck, bleeding out, in horrible pain
or sick with something terminal in early middle age

I don't know
but I'm worried that I'll be there

and the thought of everything I'd always wanted to do, but hadn't
comes to me, crashes onto me like a tsunami
and I die in regret
and that's my eternity

this is my fear

however
if I do have to die
I hope to die
in the midst of a beautiful thought
like the dream I sometimes have
where I see hope, courage, transcendence, and grace
as real as wolf cubs playing together in a meadow

yes, I can see them
and they quickly grow
into sturdy, majestic adults

they soon notice my presence
and devour me

I go peacefully

I even have a little smile on my face


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